so i have been giving a lot of thoughts as to what i want to do for my summer this year. the more i "grow up" the more often i remind myself that i cannot and don't want to waste any time. it isn't until this year that i look back and feel like i have "wasted" the last 17 years of my life. no, not that i have done nothing with my 17 years, but there are only a handful of things that when i look back, i truly feel that it was worthwhile, that my time was well spent.

while thinking about my summer, a lot of options came up. a lot of things that i want to do, a lot of things that i don't want to do, a lot of things that i should do, a lot of things that i can do. summer school... take a bio course that counts towards my nursing credit, find out for myself whether i want to go into nursing or not. but as i have given it more thought, i started asking myself... is it that i want to take the course to find out whether i want to take nursing or not... or is it that i want to take the bio course to prove to myself that i don't want to go into nursing. if it's the second one... then i don't want to waste my time doing it.

sportmart... i love working with the people there, but honestly... i can't take much of the customers anymore, some of them are just so unreasonable... it's just like... what planet did you come from. and for those of the staff that have not already quit, are quitting in the next few months. but either way, i dont' think i want to spend my four months working full time there.

for now, i think if i'm gonna stay here for the four months, i'll take the TEFL certificate course while i work P/T at sportmart for a month. i really hope i get the job on cruise ships, that would be sooooo sweet. and i definitely will save up a lot of money, cause there will be nowhere to spend my money on the ship XD

one thing that keeps jumping out at me is to take a trip somewhere. i have always wanted to travel, but i guess opportunity didn't come up until now. now that i can pay for airfare and everything myself, and also have the time to. i really want to go somewhere this summer. i wanted to go back to hk, but i think i'm gonna save that for christmas, weather's nicer and it'll be fun to spend Christmas with my cousins. so me and helen thought about going to Hawaii. Hawaii has always been somewhere I wanted to go, but iunno... it doesn't seem like it's a place i want to go to now. Hawaii's all beach and sunshine and relaxing... that's not the type of place i want to go to right now. I kinda wanna go somewhere "outdated" as alex calls it... some remote place... China or something. it'll be almost impossible to go back to china with helen and you guys though... for now anyway. but like dad said, while i have the energy and the resources to do it, why not go to places like those? like... i want to go somewhere that will be eye opening. dad suggested Yunnan, rich cultural background and everything. that way, i can go to HK on my way and stay there a few days to visit my cousins and people. iunno... gonna see if josie would go with me. one thing i definitely am grateful for, thought, is definitely how supportive i know my dad will be.

but josie found this overseas english tutor thing. basically you apply to go somewhere for 1 month, 2 months, or 3 months. you spend your time there at a homestay family, teach them day to day conversational english, and they give you a place to stay, food to eat and take you around to places and such. seems really cool, and it's only like $775 for a month, that's pretty good. i'm really looking into that, maybe go to Xinjiang or Xi'an. basically i really wanna fill up this summer.

thinking about the next few years make me really excited. i'm gonna graduate from langara recr diploma april next year, then i'm probably gonna travel somewhere again. then i think i'll head to Malaspina in Nanaimo to get my degree in Recr and Tourism. I'll graduate from that three years from now. I'm only gonna be 21 when i finish my degree, that's awesome. then i'll probably take a year off to go travelling. Come back, try to get involved in 2010 olympics, then i'm getting outa here. Vancouver, that is. Have you guys seen the movie where the guy has done a lot of travelling, in hope to find a place he finds suitable to stay for the rest of his life. I'm kinda like that, I haven't found a place where I know I want to stay for the rest of my life. Not here, not HK i dont' think. There are so many places I want to go to that I don't even know where to go first, the world is too big, and everytime I think about that, I am reminded of just how little I am. I really hope that in the near future, I will meet a friend that will be able to take a year off and just travel with me. It'll be so fun to go backpacking with Charing, but we'll see where life and where God takes us. Sometimes it seems like I'm speeding along while she is still trying to figure out where she wants to be next year.

hehe wouldn't it be so romantic if i meet my boyfriend next year or something, and we go travel around the world together some years down the road. that would be like... my dream come true.